What do you guys think about this...I was at the psyciatrists today, I told her how I was being very emotional lately, more than usual. Anyway, I told her about my weekend at a friend of my husbands, they have a beautiful home, 3 kids & all the energy in the world. I continued through my sobs that I get so frustrated that I can't be "like that", meaning, strong, working, etc. basically that I envied people who are strong & it amazes me the things people do & have a "drive" to do things, anything. When I watch "dancing with the stars" I get sad cuz I know I can't do that, or just how people excel in their lives. As I sat there in tears, the doc finally said..."you need to stop feeling sorry for yourself". I never thought of it like that. I just meant there are so many things I would love to have the confidence to try, but, my fatigue, aches, & chronic illness HAS limitations. Yes, i'm clinically depressed. Then she started on about herself & how "she was feeling sorry for herself" in the last year & SHE realized how SHE had to change. I just don't know what to make of it. How do we know if its reality of our limitations or we are feeling sorry for ourselves? Basically she was saying I don't accept myself. What do you guys think?
Dx with CD 1987, 3 resections, 3 abcess sx, OA back & hips, bulging disk, depression/anxiety, kidney stones & sx to remove, now 44 yrs old. Still trying to figure this disease out & of course all the little extra complications that come with this rollarcoaster of a life with CD.
Meds: Hurmira every other week 40 mg, Imuran .75 daily, cymbalta 40 mg daily, Lortab 7.5/500 x 4x, fish oil, fovia,vit e,folic acid,Vit B12,inject monthly,