Hope today is another good day for you. I was steriod dependant too a long time ago. Like you every time they tried to ween me off I would start to flare. Finally Remicade became available in 1999 and my GI felt so good about it that he urged me to try it. I was so very scared, but thanks to him it worked and it is still working!
I do have an occasional flare from time to time but I can take care of it on my own with no problems...just slowing down to a liquid diet for a while and plenty of rest.
Recently I had a small intestinal blockage that did hospitalize me and I did have to go on a steriod drip for a few days and came home on an antibotic and entocort for a month. I am finally weened off of that too.
Remicade has worked so well for me that there was no need to switch to Humira once that became available.
Good Luck...I hope you're on the road to recovery! Just be your own Hero!!!