So for most of the day i have been in tears. and, yesterday i had a crying fit too. And i thought I would come here to vent a bit because you guys will understand. My family is so supportive of me and are there for me no matter what. all they want to do is help me, and try to make things better. but to be honost, there are just some things they will never understand. So i will start my story from yesterday morning...
we particiated in the guts and glory walk in Sac. my parents came up and my brother and his gf came. it was good times. then we went back to the apt and hotel to change and rest a for a bit. then off to lunch. across town. now I was driving because it was the best option for us, but it was frustrating to me because we ended up using 1/4 tank of gas and i dont have a job, just started school and have put in more then 10 applications and no one is hiring. so to say the least, i have no money. my parents are generous enough to help when ever i need it, but I am very independant and dont want to ask for more of their money. Then, another friend of ours drove up for dinner, and my brother told her 7 and i wanted 6, becuse i still had to drive and hour and a half home. It just turned into a day from hell. we walked every where and didnt eat much so my blood sugar was down so I was kind of cranky. my brother never understands how that makes me feel so i was just getting angry when he kept telling me to calm down.
so this morning, i get up, still angry, and run some errands. I drop off my perscript
on for my Asocol at longs (now i just got this county medical coverage that said nothing about
ion limits, but said I was fully covered). so the lady at the pharmacy tells me it would cost $3000 to fill the scrip, $400+ for 30 dy supply, so i had to get only one weeks worth at $120. I have been crying since then. What kind of a world/country do I live in that makes it so hard to get the things you absolutely need to survive? I am seriously thinking about
moving to canada or england. I could never bring myself to harm myself, so i decided to just drive home to continue crying.
my parents are trying to help and look into a health plan for me, because school doesnt cover anything unless you go to the student health clinic, so i am kind of on my own. and i went through all of that trouble to get the county medical coverage. and i know that if i look into coverage my premiums are going to be through the roof. i just dont really feel like anyone really understads what I am going though right now, especially my family. and i cant get mad at them for it, because they are being so good to me. i dont really have any friends here because i moved here a month ago, but it seems like i dont have my friends anyway. and the ones i do have dont really understand. i need a job more then anything right now and my life just seems like it keeps sinking.
although I know i have you guys, i just feel so alone right now. Thanks for letting me vent. i just need to keep myself from getting sick over this whole thing. I hope you are all well,
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