so i have been doin ok they upped my remicade to 10mg/kg and ive been on prednisone (yuck), i still have dirreah all the time but i sometimes only go like once or twice a day! good right?!
well yesterday i had a BOWLFUL of blood and blood clots and same thing again today. i do have a fissure and hemmies but they have never bled like that only a little on the tp. so i dont think its those. plus my tummy just doesnt feel right.
so now i have to go for a colonoscopy :(:(:(. i hate those so darn much. i have the miralax and ducolax prep which isnt as bad as the fleet, i cant even swalloe that but i have problems drinking things and its probably a mental block but i just have such a problem doing it. plus the last time i had one i WOKE UP and they kept on doing it. im going to tell them flat out that it cant happen again that im scared it will but i just dont trust them to keep me in la la land after last time.
im just upset right now, any support would be greatly appreciated.