After my diagnosis 14 months before, I felt very depressed at the beggining but then slowly I started to feel better again, and enjoying life again to the fullest.
Yesterday evening, I was sitting alone in the living room, my children and husband were sleeping, and I was listening to a very nice program on the radio. They were playing beautiful songs from the 80's and 90's, and I was enjoying the music and drinking my hot chocolate. Suddenly there was this american song, that used to be one of my favourites back in high school. The song is called "Heaven" by Bryan Adams. My eyes were filled with tears before I realised it. I couldn't help it, I was crying so much. It brought back so many memories, from the days I was younger, and most of all I was crying for the healthy life I had and couldn't have anymore... So I realised...I wasn't feeling better about my condition, I was just trying to ignore it so I could have a normal life again... but my condition will always be a cloud in my life.