Thank you for all the replies. I am going to reply to all of them in one post (hope that's alright).
Thank you all for the welcome, that was kind.
As far as Remicade, yes my doctor did bring that up, it would be easier as far as money goes due to it being considered a hospital visit. I know the initial copay would be $100 but I don't know how much the insurance would pay after that. My only issue with that is I'm a dedicated worker, work myself straight into the hospital every time. And I'm getting a new job right now (due to the overwhelming stress at my last job) and I can't take off to go to the hospital for a Remicade treatment, that is another reason why he thinks Humira would be best because I can do it myself and wouldn't have to miss work.
I just ended my job as a group home supervisor, but can work there whenever I want to help out or train. I am now going to be a preschool teacher. So I can't put the kids on hold to go to the doctor's.
I know I'm supposed to take care of myself, and I do that to the best of my ability, hence quitting my last position. But, I'm the only one I have to take care of me, my bills, my health, and my future. No one helps me, so taking off work is not an option there.
I've tried sitting on the toilet and "trying" to go without forcing myself, it never works. I do agree with the bloated statement though, I tend to get bloated quite often. My abdomin swells alot, my intestines are pretty much always enlarged to a certain extent.
My last colonoscopy was a little scary because they removed hundreds of polyps (sp?) and had to do biopsies, all were benign but the doctor did say there were so many he couldn't get them all. So, I will have to have regular scopes to do further biopsies and hopefully clear out the polyps completely? Wishful thinking probably.
I swear I can feel everything solid that goes through my intestines, as weird as that may sound. I've become so in tune with my body as far as the Crohn's, pain, food, meds, illness, etc. The only thing I can't seem to get a grasp on is the one pain I described.
I probably went above and beyond in this post and for that I apologize. Thanks for taking time to respond Gail, Matthew, and CD89 and for the warm welcome.