I am feeling alot of stress these days that isn't caused by my health issues,but needless to say,it's sending my tummy into a turmoil.I thought that getting it out might help some.
A few months back I did a post about my daughter having to see a neurologist for being delayed in her gross motor skills.Well,she wasn't very cooperative the first go around w/the tests & tomorrow we go for another try w/the MRI,but this time w/anestesia.I am sure that all will be fine,but I am still incredibily nervous.
My great grandma had a massive heart attack one week ago today & is still in critical condition.She is 90 years old & we all know that her time is limited anyways,but I have been on pins & needles every time the phone rings.I am just so sad because she is in Ohio & I am in NC & am not able to be there w/her at this time.
Also,this past august,I ended a 12 year relationship w/my daughters father.He is a great dad & a really nice guy,we just aren't very compatible & neither one of us is happy,but of course,he doesn't want to see things the way I do.It took me many,many months to work up the nerve to tell him,& after losing 18 pounds in less than 2 weeks from being totally stressed out,I knew that it was time.Things have been hard for me because most all of our family & friends have made me out to be the bad guy,even though they don't know all the reasons behind my actions.Anyways,despite all the nonsupportive advice that I have recieved,I still feel like I made the right decision,& I plan on sticking to my guns.I just don't see how I can provide a happy home for my child if I am miserable about being w/her dad.
Ok,last but not least,I made a new friend that lives really,really far away from me.There are some mixed signals & alot of mixed feelings on my part,& being an extremely anxious person has not helped my confusion.I know that I am setting myself up for a major disappointment,but I just can't help myself.I really admire & respect this person as a friend & I don't want to scare him away.
So,thanks to everyone who took the time to read my tales of woe.I do feel a little better after typing all this out!