Hi Carla, thankyou so much for your post. Just reminded me not to sink, like I keep doing.
Health has been pants. A massive de ja vu is happening with doctors. If anyone suggests anymore that my lungs are bleeding because of depression, I will not be held responsible for my actions. I next see them on the 28th, I've not seen them for a couple of weeks, and I feel deserted. With everything else that had been going on, I really don't know who I am most days.
College is still going strong. The walk there is really hitting me harder each week, but once I'm there, I feel better. I'm doing well, and flying through the course, and get only praise from my tutor. The first unit should take 20 hours, yet I completed it in 12 hours with not one single error. The course is so easy, but that's a good thing. If it was harder, then I wouldn't be as keen to go.
I'm not spending much time at home. I've been going to Paul's brothers most days, and offering our services to look after nephew Kain more. I'm trying to keep as busy as I can.
My physio made me do a shuttle run on Friday. A run to test how fit you are. I couldn't manage as long as I did in january, though wasn't far off. I've been told this is actually a good thing, as I'm obviously not well. I guess I am impressed with myself in a way. That I was able too push myself as far as I did.
Lol, don't worry though, all this business I can't forget my health. I don't think my body would actully let me.
So, a mixed view of how things are going on my end. Thankfully, the good stuff, is keeping me a bit more balanced than usual. Which is handy as not seen my psych in a couple of months now.
Ooooo, also now got an appointment with hosp on 13th May, with my doctor and Paul and my CF nurse. The topic will be.....Babies. I am happy about
this. Super duper happy. It means I've got support again from that angle of things. For a while now it's been: don't talk about
kids infront of Gemma, as she'll get upset and we can't help her. But my consultant is finally in a helpful mood in that respect. Probably not healthy too get my hopes up again. But well, it's exciting, and I can't help it:P
Hope you're well Carla! And again thankyou. You've just given me reminder too evaluate, which I keep forgetting to do. Evaluating how things are going, always makes me feel better as the dark things don't feel as dark.
Huge hugs back