Casey, I am 22, and I am dealing with exactly the same thing! all my life I felt like everything was under control, but the older I get the more often I find myself compleetly overwelmd! when I am looking for a job, should I tell them I sometimes go to the hospital, or not? should I stay out late with my friends or get the sleep I know I need to be healthy? I too was born with mecinoum illius, and have the scar to prove it, it stretches across my entire stomach, and is very deep. I have also had a g-tube. I have mediport scars on my chest. letting my boyfriend see me was the hardest part of our relationship, (well, that and the fear that he would leave me the first time I got really sick). sometimes CF makes me so sad I sit down and cry, sometimes it makes me so angry all I want to do is break things. I think the year I was 20 was the hardes of my life, you are really becoming an adult. everything in your life is changing, so of corse the way you view CF and your feelings about
it will change, it is starting to effect new parts of your life that you had never thought about
when you had just gotten used to how it scrwed things up before. my sugestion to you is to suround yourself with people who want the best for you, the kind of people who will make the disation for you to sit in the non-smoking secion, because they don't want anything to happen to you. be
open and honest about
everything with the people close to you. as you get a little more meture you will start to get used to it again, you will figure out your limits, and while CF will always get you down and angry sometimes you will learn again how to not let it run your life. you have to remember it is not who you are, just somthing you have, and while it seems to take over your life, it does not change who you are! it gets better, and then worse, and then better again. I would like to talk to you more about
this if you want, but I do not get on this site very often. you can e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org
if you want.