Hi Lucy. I hope you are feeling better. I read your post when trawling the internet. I'm the mum of an 11 year old girl with cf. I just wondered if you had been on the Cystic Fibrosis Trust Forum. I think there might be some really nice people to talk to, with and without cf. There's also great stories of people with cf who have found love. It sounds like you weren't with the right person when you were diagnosed, this was a lucky escape for you. As you get older you realize love isn't prescribed, we can't actually control who we fall in love with, with the right person cf will be no obstacle. I notice you live on the Isle of Wight, obviously I want to do the best for my daughter, I'm going to be moving house soon and would like to move somewhere to enhance her health. You say where you live is one of the best places for cf, if you have the time could you let me know a little more about it? Good luck, I got divorced 4 years ago and don't want to get hurt again, so with or without cf you aren't alone in being nervous of relationships.