Back in the day.......Ok actually about 3 years ago, about a year before I left work, a year after I'd started.
I was smoking, just when I went out, I needed a cig. It was through my depression days, when I was rock bottom. I needed to do something to punish myself, without leaving any visable marks. It was my lungs that were really upsetting me, so it was those I felt I had to punish. and boy, did I punish them. I went from smoking nothing to smoking 20 a night. And I was going out nearly every night, and getting wasted so I could punish my liver aswell.
I wanted to die, I wanted rid of myself, and I knew how harmful smoking would be too me.
It was the most stupid thing ever,and I regret it so much. I did do what I set out to do. I harmed myself. It wasn't long before I was coughing up black/brown gunk. My lung function went from 107% FEV1 and 113% FVC to 66% for both.
It had a major impact on my lungs. I'd started getting regular 3 monthly chest infections, before taking up smoking, but now it was even worse. Now I was really struggling with my breathing, and going through a shed load of ventolin.
I still struggle with my lung function now. It generally resides around 85%, which is a HUGE drop from what it used to be. I have a bigger problem with asthma than what I used to. Smoking really ruined my lungs, and I wish I'd never started.
It's not hard to quit. My fiance managed it in a day, and hasn't had a single smoke since. He'd been smoking for years and years. You just have to have the right attitude to it. If your there thinking, well it can't effect me that much. Trust me it CAN and most probably will. If it hasn't started to effect you yet, trust me it will one day, in a snap. I will forever regret smoking. Remember that every cig cuts 5 minutes off your life, of a normal person. PWCF have short lives to begin with, why make it even shorter?
It's true!: Smile and the whole world smiles with you. Frown and the world turns upside down.
Diagnosed with: Cystic Fibrosis, Asthma, ABPA, Clinical Depression, Mild liver cirrohsis, mild osteopenia. Waiting for final diagnosis on Muscular Dystrophy type symptoms.
Allergies: Any dressing except Mepilex border. Even plasters make my skin blister. Hayfever, Tazocin, Tobromycin, Ibruprofen, Asprin, Codeine, Mirtazapine.
I have a pretty little port-a-cath on left side of chest wall