i personally don't have CF but my daughter did. She was 10 years old, diagnosed when she was 2 1/2 and I must admit, learned to cope with it quite well. No, I don't think you're weird, it's only natural to fear the unknown and having CF only intensifies matters. My daughter taught us to take life one day at a time and it helped us get through the hard times after she left us. I am so sorry that your bf left but don't assume your dad will falter in his support for you. It's very scary being a CF parent but I can tell you from experience that sometimes the biggest stress comes from knowing something is bothering your child but not knowing what. We tend to think the worse, that we are being "protected" from worrying which makes the fear and imagination race out of control. Besides, he may be trying to hide his own fears and concerns to "protect" you. Support is very important to your care, you must take care of yourself mentally as well as physically so PLEASE find someone you can share your feelings, worries, fears, anger, etc. with. I won't tell you that it will make everything all better but it will give you both the strength to face whatever lies ahead-good or bad. I pray you feel better soon and will never give up the prayer for a cure but until then, I think I can say for everyone on this forum that we are all here for you anytime, if you need someone to talk to, cry with, vent on, or laugh with--you aren't alone. So hang in there and keep on being you!!!