Posted 10/24/2006 12:23 AM (GMT -7)
Hi. I am 29 and have only had chest complaints until this yr. I don't no why but does anyone have stomack pains where it seems over a series of days you get constipated, not totally though. Had barrium meal tests, didn't show up anything. These really effect daily living. You can't eat, sleep and function much at all. They think it might be 'DIOS' (something intestinal obstruction syndrome??? The doc has me on lactulose (light laxitive). It helps short term, but not every time. And it is very embarrassing to take as you cant control ur bowels. It like I go from 1 extreme to the other.
Also. This has created severe depression for me as I haev had to give up work and I lost my gf of 4 yrs as it was becoming to much for her.I meet girls real easy as I don't at all look like I suffer from CF. I'm a personal trainer. I weight 80kg and am 176cm. I can run really well. Like 4 km in 18 mins. And i can squat and bence press 150kg. I train every day of my life.Sometimes twice, which I've been doing for 10 yrs now. Sometimes I wounder why I do it. I've had 2 gf of 4 yrs leave me cos of cf.I just meet a really lovely girl, but because of this new problem in my stomack I even more scared to have someone new in my life.I sabotage most opportunities i have cos I just find it easier, but we all deserve to have someone special and we desire it as much as the next person. I have a graphic design degree and I want to do a yr at teachers college then teach pe n design at High school. But I feel so sick right now. The time and energy to train seems to be all I can manage, yet I have so much ambition. I don't no how to live my life anymore. When girls tell you that living with you is like living in a black hole. It hurts. Is it fair to let ppl in our lives like this. Should we just have fun in not worry about a future. But then that compromises some chance at attracting a girl (cause they want a normal life). I just dont no anymore. I'm a fighter tho. Dispite my girl leaving me I still managed to qualify for pulmozym? I ran my little ass off. I am at home again. God 29 unemployed at home. I'm too embarrassed to tell a girl that, after all that I achieved this doesn't seem fair. I no that you guys out there are more than likely going through the same. I'm so sorry4that. I wish we could all be so happy. If anyone wants to be fit and strong I can definately help. You have to be very motivated for me to help you though. I think I can slow your lung deterioration. I have asthma and it helps to run. Even if you can't make it to the end of th road. You will if you just do a little more each time. Please give it a go. Its nice to breath again!!!
God I ***** I know. My anxiety levels get high when girls are involved. Also I drink about 8 jim beans R2Ds each weekend. Does anyone know if that is good or bad or alright.