Hello, Melissa! I'm really sorry it took so long for me to respond. It's seriously been
months, and the slow response on this site is exactly what keeps me from
coming back too often. hah.
Well, I'm gonna let you know a bit about me, just as you did, and I'm
not gonna lie, I'm kind of excited because you're my age and in a
similar situation in school. I would love nothing more than to meet a
whole group of people with CF. I really would love that. Or even just one
person. And here you are, even if we can't meet in person.
So, I'm 19, almost twenty, I'm in my second year of college - which
is nuts to think about. I live in San Francisco in an apartment with
a friend of mine. It's great having my own room, especially after the
whole stranger-roommate situation last year. Hum... so, I was born and
raised in the Bay Area of California - just outside of San Francisco.
I've got my mom and dad at home, as well as my grandma and my little
brother. I've also got an older brother who is currently living and
studying in Southern California.
As for my CF, I was only diagnosed about three years ago - when I
was sixteen. It'll be three years this summer. I was definitely in
denial about the diagnosis, and I tried to keep living like I'd been
living - bad idea. I was getting sick a lot and I wasn't gaining weight. I
finally have started coming to terms with this disease, beginning the
end of last year. It's not something I can hide anymore. Only my
family and a few close friends know I have CF, and even then I don't seem
comfortable enough letting them know my pain. Honestly, at this point,
I'm sick of hiding it all, so I'm working on letting it out and being
more open with people I meet. I haven't gotten far in letting people
know, but I'll get there eventually. What I need now is to learn to love
myself and accept my disease, because the way I see it is if I can
accept it, no one else should have a problem with it. And if they do,
it's their problem, not mine. So, currently, things are looking up,
even when I feel crappy. I can't dwell so much on the negative
anymore. It was killing me. I have to be honest though, right now I've got
a pain in my right lung and it hurts to breath. I just want it to go
away, and it will, but it makes me want to cry a little.
Okay, so, I think I've just dumped a whole lot of information on
you. Hope you don't mind too much. And I understand if you don't
exactly want to reply immediately or in as much detail. hahah.. k, take care,
and I hope to hear from you soon. my email address is firstname.lastname@example.org so please email me so maybe we can keep in touch better. thanks!