I did read your post, and Merry Christmas to you. I agree with Shy, if you could break your posts into paragraphs they would be easier to read and they are really long. Maybe try posting shorter posts as the members loose track of your train of thought when trying to absorb so much at one time.
It is good to talk about what is on your mind but take it one thing at a time and that way you will be conversing with the members :)
That is just my opinion and know we are here to support and listen to you. We care.