This is so ironic. I just ordered a book over the internet that I have been looking for for years. I read it back in the early 80's and had not been able to find it at the library or anything. It is called "the new mood therapy" and is written by Dr. David Burns. It is all about cognitive therapy. I used it like you say as a personal bible and lost track of it years ago. It helps you learn how to look at life differently and even teaches relaxation by meditation. I think you would benefit from this book. I just typed books in the search browser?. ( I am not that good at computers but I think that is what you call it.) It takes you to amazon and alibris. You can get new and used books. I know that he wrote a second book, like a workbook, but I wanted the first one. I hope that this helps you.
I live in northern Michigan so I can relate to you about the snow and the grey days. We get a lot of both. If I can get out and cross country ski or walk I am okay but lately I have done niether and it is hard, plus I am gaining weight too and that doesn't help.
Good luck to you and I hope that you get the book, they are inexpensive on that web site too. So that helps.
Have you ever applied for a grant for college? That helps a lot, I got one when I was going and it payed for my tuition, books plus I had some left over.
I wish you luck.
fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, clinically depressed and allergies