There are no words to describe how I feel right now. I have kept my faith and hopes alive but tonight is really testing my ability to be strong. It is NYE and here I sit alone wondering what others are doing. I am sure they are laughing and enjoying each other before the New Year gets here.
This is my 3rd NYE by without the one person I want to kiss at midnight. I am afraid that I will never get to kiss him ever again. It feels as if my heart will never be able to go on without him anymore
I want so much for this new year to be the year that I finally get everything I deserve with my hard work and faith.
My New Years resolution is to be the person I want to be. The person that can be replied upon and trusted. I know that this is something that I dont deserve but I know that a new year can hopefully give me a chance in anothers eyes. I guess you never know, huh?
Well, Happy New Year to all of you and my special angel, where eever he may be, who without his intervention I would not be here to see this new year.
Although lonely on this night, I thank God that I am here.
The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. Let us move forward with strong and active faith.