Wow.....thats almost the same thing I posted 5 months ago....
I am very glad you found this place....I have so much more to say...I am just shocked!
Let me explain a bit to you...my is Christi, I am also 16. I came here in July. I sounded just like you do. I wrote almost that thing in my first post. Since then, I have found a family here. I have been way way down....but right now I am more up. I hope that I can help you.
I was/ and still am the same as you described. You sound exactly like me!
Wow...someone here my own age going through the same thing.....tear....I dont know what to say...
I really hope I can help you out. I have depression and it started about 2 years ago also. Mine hit rock bottom this summer. Luckily, I found this place and I got some of the support I needed. I have a 'group' of friends at school, but I really only talk to one friend. I have social phobia, so I really dont like being around people. Which makes school even harder! As if it isnt hard enough already! As for my parents....we are very disconnected. I had a hard trying to tell them about my feelings, and unfortunatly, they rejected them. I got much worse, and they didnt even know it...I thought...goh how could they miss this....But, I have gotten better on my own.
I do the same thing as you also, when I am not at school.....I am in my room. I go out when I get thristy! And I actually want to leave my room, but I find that difficult. I dont like to go places because of the social phobia. Plus, I have panic and anxiety attacks...I am always afraid something will happen. I hate being in places with a bunch of people. Its horrible for me. I think I a bit of agoraphobia....
Goh, I keep looking back at your post and you are so much like me! I have felt everything you wrote. And let me tell you, it can be better. And I want to help you as much as possible, because I was just there....and I am still struggling with it, but I am so much better than I was.
If you'd like, you can email me. Just go to my profile. Feel free to connect me anytime. I will do my best. And if you have AOL you can get my screename! I am always on! Feel free to! Anything!
Keep posting. Tell us a bit more if you would like. And we will try to help you. But, we are always here to listen and we are very supportive. Feel free to post whenever you need to! I am so glad you found this place! I promise it can be better! An dI hope you are able to get better! It takes time and patience....I know how hard it is....but it is so very worth it!
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Dx: Tendonitis(L knee 02'), Chondromalacia Patella(R knee 02'), Fibromyalgia (07'), Plantar Fascitis(L foot Nov.04' erased with surgery July 05')
Not Dx: Depression, Anxiety/Panic Attacks, Social Phobia, Mild OCD
Meds tried: all the OTC stuff, Mobic, and Lyrica.
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word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
talk and laugh too loud...its because I am trying to forget that I am sad."
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."