There's No Hope & I really feel like I've lost

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Date Joined Dec 2007
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   Posted 12/29/2007 11:54 PM (GMT -6)   
I've been on here before a while ago but I havent' had a chance to get back on lately.
Times have been especially stressful in these last few weeks. My grandparents who I love dearly are getting sicker every day and it's especially hard to watch them suffer. I haven't seen my friends in months because there's never any time and they dont seem to have any interest in me anymore. I have no money to go back to school so I dont even know if you would call me a 'student' anymore, because I'm pretty much in debt. My family constantly fights every day and all i ever do is cry when I'm alone. I try to get my mind off things but it's literally impossible. I can't sleep at all in the last few weeks and so I'm sick and tired on top of being sick, and just really stressed. I need some R & R. HELP!

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   Posted 12/30/2007 8:14 AM (GMT -6)   

I was wondering how you were doing.
I am so sorry about your Grandparents,mine are very sick too,and I worry everytime the phone rings...
Plus they live about 4 hrs away,so making the trip is something I have to plan,and need to do asap.

Have you gotten to a doctor yet?

Mod- Depression

Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,

Have been med free for 2 years now.

I will scream with you,Cry with you and hopefully laugh with you.

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   Posted 12/30/2007 11:39 AM (GMT -6)   
I am glad you are back.  Believe me I do know exactly how you must be feeling.  I have been on healing for almost a year and I know that most of my fellow posters will agree, I have had one heck of s ride.  There were times when I genuinely wanted to lay down and I actually did.
But by God's will and a guardian angel I am still here.  I would be lying if I said there is an easy fix for this monster we call depression.  The unfortunate thing is that you will most likely go up and down throughout you're lifetime with depression.  Not much comfort, huh?
My best advice is too hang on to your FAITH no matter how beat down you are.  Although things may eventually become just as exhausting as they are now, there are better days that will see you through, JUST HANG ON!!!!
It is a rough road to travel, especially at this time of the year.  Believe me, I am struggling with my own demons and depression and at this point in my life if I was not holding on to my faith, I really dont know if I would be able to fight the burdens and sadness I am right now.
Just know that we do care about each other and although we are not physically with you, we are spiritially!
God bless you and keep the faith.
 The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today. Let us move forward with strong and active faith.

olivia of course
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   Posted 12/30/2007 12:33 PM (GMT -6)   

Welcome back! I know how you feel exactly, and I understand you completely.

I'm with Faithfully, you have to hang on to hope to make. You cannot let depression consume you. Whenever you feel like throwing in the towels, remember you have made it this far, and you are strong.

Depression for me has been a lifelong battle, and some days are more rough than the others. But I am still hanging on to hope, the future doesn't seem as dark anymore.

As Shy asked, have you talked to your doctor recently? That might help a lot.

Please know you are not alone.


getting by
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   Posted 12/30/2007 12:49 PM (GMT -6)   

I know what you are going through, it is hard to watch your grandparents when they are sick. But you know they should be feeling better soon. How old are they?

The holidays can be so stressful, but they are almost over. I got through them so far this year, sometimes I feel a little empty when they are over. That is when I usually start trying to pick up hobbies to occupy my time. I live in a colder climate and the winters are rough. Sometimes you can't get out at all. I don't go out much but it seems easier when you know that you can if you were to want to.

I know how it feels when your friends give up on you. I have fibromyalgia and after they kept saying "your sick again?" They finally gave up on me. But when I do feel better I contact them by phone. But can never commit to doing anything.

This too will pass. Just keep hanging in there. I will say a prayer for your grandparents. It sounds like you are very close to them.

Keep trying, things have a way of working themselves out. Good luck with getting back to school. Have you ever applied for a grant? Or do they even do that anymore?


getting by
fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, clinically depressed and allergies

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   Posted 12/30/2007 7:09 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you so much. I haven't seen a doctor. I haven't seen a therapist in a while. I tried getting some kind of financial aid or what not to go back to school but I got denied. So I dont know what more I can do. I guess education will have to be put on hold...

It probably is the weather/season

Thank you for your prayer, getting by. I might see a doctor soon.

getting by
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   Posted 12/30/2007 7:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Do you ever just sit back and listen to some of your favorite music? That is what I often do, though it usually gets me moving on house work or something. But if you could just listen to it, that might help you relax. Or maybe some deep breathing. I like to dance when I am by myself, it helps put me in a better mood.

What kind of music do you like?


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fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, clinically depressed and allergies

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