well , i wrote nd logged in here to get help as i wished to exert the pain inside me that i didnt have the courage to share with my family and friends
well i didnt check anywhere if i have depression , am am sure i got it ..I had entered alot of sites and read about symptoms of depression where i read that most of them r me :(
and what is killing me , is that darn depression have been started from a year without a single reason , and the most strange is that i was infected with it after i was living the most happy and meriful life i have ever had ,, and look what am in now ,, i just when i want 2 calm down , i have nothing to do except start remembering those happy days ,, the idea that makes me want to cry and scream just start thinking i bcame living ion just memories
look at me now , i bcame just a cinfused person all the time , my old friends started to feel that am weired or silly , i became talking non-sense , un wised talking .. and i was infected with depression in the period that i had the chance to know many new people at my university and church ,,but for my bad luck those two grps i didnt gained except silly friends because of my depression , and others sees that i sucks , and they have the right :'(
i feel comfortable just when am lonely , not in direct dealin with ppl , and i bcame thinking too much b4 hanging out with my friends .dunno mayb , may that coz i dont want to have a worse figure abt me more than that
well am just lost now ,, and here i want to take ur advice , am bored from the situation am in , i miss myself and want to get my normal,happy life back ,,, plz tell me what forst steps i must take , should i go to doctor ?? and if yes , will i assure that i will be cured and how long will it take ??
another question ,, does it cost too much to visit a doctor and have medicines ??