Hi all at HW,
I am back again.
I went off on a holiday this past Christmas and met my mom with whom I have had a very difficult life. But that didn't turn out the way I expected, and I went mostly because I was told she is very sick. But when I realized that she is still that mean person, (and she used to be very spiteful to me her only daughter), I just told her what I had to say.
Now, that I am back I have been feeling down. I don't know why? I have been experiencing panic and anxiety.
Even when I was with her, as a teen, she would be abusive and verbally abusive. And she used to be very spiteful. If I don't do what she wants, she will do something to spite me. And it hurt me a lot.
I have tried to get a new Dr. as I am on Effexor, and Clozenpam, which I have been taking to calm my nerves. All that excitement I had before going, is all gone. And it is like a balloon has been popped.
Laughter is the best medicine J