Hi there and yes by all means go to the hospital, be sure to let them know you resorted to using drugs and that you have fears of relapsing again.
The other thing I would check on ...........does your own Pdoc have openings for emergency situations as yours seems to be? Usually they can juggle the schedule for an established patient. Just a thought. Your Pdoc may not realize how bad off you are right now. Either way seek help and don't hesitate. We are here for you and will await your next post. Gentle Hugs, Kitt