Hello this is Kitt and I am so glad you went to the ER and that you have a therapist. It is always difficult breaking up with someone you care deeply for and I do feel your pain. We all experience break up at some point in our life and it's not easy and probably one of the most worst feelings in the world. You are going through a crisis now and what you need to do is talk it out and let out your feelings. Keep talking.
Deal with one day at a time. Just get through today and let tomorrow take care of itself. You can do this and with our help you will make it.
Please make an appointment to see your therapist ASAP and come here and talk to us. We are here and we care. We will listen to what you have to say and we will support you with friendship and a place to feel safe.
If you are feeling so low that you don't feel you can cope please seek help immediately:
AS for going out looking for someone, it may be to soon for you. You may feel like you will never meet anyone else and everything reminds you of her. You may find yourself questioning who you can trust, including you since you didn't expect the breakup many times you will wonder if you were wrong trusting your partner. It takes time to rebuild yourself and the relationships with others, be patient!
Be good to yourself and know that you are a good and kind person, don't beat yourself up but instead take babysteps toward recovery. Make sure you eat well and exercise. And most of all know that we care about you. Gentle Hugs and stay with us. We need you here.