First of all welcome to the Healing Well depression forum.
You have come to the right place. We all have been struggling some with the time of year. Depression seems to like to set in at this time.
We can understand what you are going through, we have been there. But with the help of the forum, I imagine you will be feeling better in no time. There is a helpful group of people here who are willing to listen, so let us know what we can help you with.
I am so sorry to know hear about your sister, especially such a sudden death. May I offer my condolances to you. I lost two of my older sisters, one to cancer and the other to lupus. It isn't easy. So let it out, grieve. It is a slow process so just go with it. You will never forget her, she will always hold a special place in your heart, but I am sure that she would want you to get on with your life and to feel good.
There will always be somebody near by so let it out here.
Luv and hugs,
fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, clinically depressed and allergies