I can see that you know all the right things that you need to do. I wish you would try to go to work. If you just sit in your room you are just going to get more depressed. You know that you need to eat and take your medications. Why don't you want to do these things? Please try, we are all cheering for you right now. We want to see you get better. If you don't like that job, maybe you should look for something else. It might do you good to have a new job.
Do you exercise or take walks, that always makes me feel better, maybe you should try that. I sure hope that it helps. Please try to help yourself. We don't want to see you get worse.
Love and hugs,