I am so at a loss for a problem I have with my sleeping. Nothing else in my life really gets me like this one. I know I have some sort of sleep disorder...what I dont know. Years ago it was very bad then it settled down and now its back with a vengeance.
Its like this. I will wake up and cannot talk or move. I struggle to wake up fully and its like electrical shocks are going through my body. The worst place I feel it is in my heart. I literally feel like my heart is being wrenched out. When I manage to get out of it I am disoriented I feel like I am falling in a trance and have to walk around, do exercises etc for me to feel better. I do this because I am still in a stupor when I come out of it and is so tired that i will just fall back into the same thing I just fought to get out of.
My son is 22 and from he was small I told him if you hear mommy making noise in my sleep slap me so I wake up. My daughter I tell the same thing. The night before she heard me and woke me twice. I was told once it was a form of seizure. It really feels as if I am plugged in an electrical circuit and the shocks go thru my body making me shake.
I used to work as a DSW..Developmental service worker and had a night sleep over position plus my regular day hours. I had an attack one night and lost the position because it happened 4 times for the night and one of the clients heard and i had to tell the supervisor the truth. The nearest I have come to a name for it is Sleep Paralysis but my symptoms are even worse than those for sleep paralysis. I have done sleep studies but it never happened during the study.
When it happens I cannot sleep for the whole night and I am tired and trancelike. Each time I go back to sleep it happens once i close my eyes. I was crying last night because not sleeping the night before I was really tired and each time it happened it left me feeling weaker and in a daze. I tried to call out but my daughter's door was closed so she did not hear me. It also makes me afraid to go back to sleep. I am wondering if the meds is also playing a part in this thing.
Has anyone ever experienced this to this degree?
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Chronic depression, Panic disorder, GERD, Sciatica
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