Thanks so much shy. It is about 730pm and the evening is about done. No visitors or happy valentines day for me. I prayed all day for the chance to just see him today, thats all I want but I guess his this day like an anniversary is not worth anything. I cant believe that I have sat here this evening waiting and watching for him, I mean literally watched out the window for him. I just cant believe that he doesnt want to at least see me, I realize that the emotions are high when he sees me but unlike him, I yearn to see him, I dont think anyone in this world loves someone like I do this man and how sorry I am truly sorry!!!!!!!! I knew something was wrong between us the last time we were togethet because I could not do for him what I used to do, all i want is him.
I dont know what else to say but I love someone that I will never get over him like he has gotten over me, I will live a million years and never stop loving him. I am sorry I am rambling but I am so sad right now that I could die. Im going to celebrate this day with my Meiers Pink catawba.
So much for love and faith, right?
I wish you guys could understand how I feel and how very sorry I am that we are not together. To make things worse tonight, I found the rose petals and well....other things I had purchased for Valentines day.
I always leave my door open for him and the outside light on but maybe I should not anticipate him ever coming back, I cant even think about it right now.
I really need your prayers tonight because my miracle didnt happen, what else is new?