I have to tell you guys that I am really sad to see so many negative posts about this relationship. I will speak for the person that has hurt someone that means the world to me so I guess you could say I will put myself into the place of the person that seems to be the bad guy.
First I want to say that yes I am the bad guy in this situation and do I regret it? MORE THAN ANYONE COULD EVER KNOW!! I am almost convinced that he is gone from my life forever as I have told myself that he will never trust me or our relationship again. I made so many STUPID mistakes that werent losing him over.
I guess what I am trying to say is that it is my faith that keeps my heart open to the posibilities of a future with this man. And yes he is right to feel as he does like so many other people but what you have to understand is that losing someone you know that you hurt makes you want to try so much harder, do I deserve it? Absolutely not because of what has transpired between us.
It is my illness that has helped tear this relationship apart.
Most of you know me and the plight that I have taken to reconcile with this man. All I have is my word and my heart which are both broken right now. I am the bad guy here but it woild kill me to think that you all felt that way about me.
You know how sorry I am and that I would do anything to remedy what has happened but all I have now are the days alone to think about what I did, it is pure torture, trust me.
As I said in my previous post, I do not know the extent of the relationship here in question but if she is trying and is true to her heart, then she deserves a chance, don't destroy yourself mentally to fix this but although your head may say one thing, your heart and soul may have a totally different opinion.
One of the meanings of faith is:
"FAITH IS BEING SURE OF WHAT YOU HOPE FOR AND CERTAIN OF THINGS YOU CANNOT SEE"
"We are made strong by difficulties we face not evade.
Of all the moments in my life, you were always there somewhere. Once as a wish. Once as a blessing. And now as the greatest loss I'll ever experience."
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results
" Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."