Eviltang - I'd like to invite you over to the chronic pain forum as well as welcome you here. I too suffer from chronic pain. I do not have the numerous other medical problems you have, but I have my share. I am 40 years old and have lived this "pain" life for the past 8 years at least. My husband and I have been together 19 years and have 3 children, one is mine from a previous relationship, and she is almost 23. We have 2 sons, one is almost 19, lives at home but hardly see him between work and friends. The other is 16 and a sophomore in high school, also on the honor roll. I work from home and leave the house only once a week to go get groceries for the growing boys! So, I do know almost exactly where you are coming from.
I, too, suffer from depression. It has hit me the worst when I realize that this is it, this is my life...I am always hurting and have to wear a patch and take pills for the rest of my life so I do not hurt as bad...That's it, I can't walk normally or bend down to pick up my grandchild....It's all very depressing.
Please, feel free to email me (email is in my profile if you click on the envelope under my name). Please, feel free to join us on the chronic pain forum too....We definitely all understand and that is what has helped me to claw my way out of my depression at times.
cervical fusion 2006
L4-5 surgery with cages, plates, and screws in 2005
MEDS: Fentanyl patch, Norco, Celexa, trazodone, and baclofen
To handle yourself, use your head...to handle others, use your heart
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong, act like everything is perfect, and pretend its not hurting me.