Thanks you guys for your posts. Today is a day where I just want to lay in bed and cry all day. I am sure that the person I love is not living near me any more, I just know that his life has started new with this person. I always knew he would never come back to me, i know that was why I was so insecure, when we together I was fine but once she arrived I knew he would never want me again. She has money, goals everything that a man would want in someone, I always thought the love he had for me would endure all the bs that took place. I am really depressed today and thought about going to the hospital but I cant, I have to pick up my daughter monday from the airport in cleveland, and besides that I have her car that she loves so I couldnt go anywhere because I have to be here so she can get her car.
Im done praying for a miracle, I have almost given up hope and my faith is hanging by a thread. I am not eating again and have dropped several pounds, almost 12 pounds.
I am so sad and so hopeless, but I dont let anyone as I get up every day get dressed and wait for the dreams and all the things that I am praying for, every day.
It is sad because everywhere I would go I would see signs of faith, if and when I see one now, I pass it by and saddly ignore it.
Sorry to be so depressing but it the weekend once again and here I sit wondering what it brings. I will put my face on so noone knows the pain and heartache I am really going through, after all who wants to be around someone that is depressed, poverty-ridden and nothing to offer right now or maybe forever.
Thanks for listening.
Of all the moments in my life, you were always there somewhere. Once as a wish. Once as a blessing. And now as the greatest loss I'll ever experience."
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results
" Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it."
If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take you to my soul and show you all the love there is."