Hey Everyone
Im new on healingwell but im Howlyncats daughter. Anyways, the reason for this thread was because, id been reading through everyone else stories, and thought id open up to my own. On January 15th, 2003 my dad passed away. And lately i find that everything is just reminding me of him, like i'll hear his favourite song Kissed By a Rose, or ill watch a movie with a wedding and ill think my dad wont be there for mine, and I have an amazing step father, who in reality is a better father to me then mine ever was, bu that doesnt stop the pain or the hurt. And im also slowly watching my grandfather pass away, and i was always very close to him, my nan passed away last year and i loved her to pieces but my grandfather was the one i was always closest to. Just lately its hard to find fun in anything, Jesse, my boyfriend, tries his hardest to keep me smiling, and my friends and family do too. Friday night with my mom and Saturday with my friends was the most fun i had in a while. the things i used to love just arent things that are easy to stay interested in. I know that i will ahve to live many many more years without my father and many others in my life, and i do try to celebrate the life they had yet im still so mad at him, but i miss him. Idk im kinda confused and messed up right now, lol, im sorry for venting but thanks for listening,
take care
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