Hello this is Kitt and I have depression and it has been a part of my life for 28 years now. I have survived even when there were times the pain was unbearable I always believed it would get better.
I have the feeling your thinking we are all saying talk, talk, talk, how is that going to help? Talking about how you feel greatly reduces your feelings of isolation and distress.
Some of your issues may never be completely resolved by counselling, but a good counsellor should be able to help you deal with them constructively at present, and to teach you better coping skills and better methods of dealing with problems which arise in the future.
If it is not a counselor, then try your Mom, give her a chance. Or perhaps you have a relative that you can talk to. Nothing is ever so bad that you cannot tell someone. People are very compassionate and we have all lived through some bad times.
Would it work for you to write down what kind of job you might be interested in trying, maybe part time or even just volunteering as that way you can stop if it is not a good fit for you.
Also exercise, join a YMCA and you will meet friends to just visit with, you do not have to tell them your problems but you will feel better getting out of the house.
When I feel low I practice making sure I smile at others and say hello, and I find I feel better for making them feel good.
Being depressed causes us to narrow our view of the world around us to such an extent that reality becomes distorted. Let us help you out of this place your in. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and please keep walking toward it.