Jenny, first I want to tell you that you really arent alone. I know exactly what you are feeling. I dont have a job but I can relate about
not being able to
open up to people. Especially my mom. Its the hardest thing in the world for me to do. And I still dont talk to my mom about
anything... what has helped me has been talking about
things on here. I know it is very scary. But, I started
opening up more on here, and everyone really cares. We dont judge each other. We are here to support and care about
each other. And we care about
you. I can tell you that bad things happen when you hold things in. It only gets worse. And I learned that the hard way. I am not able to go to the doctor. It sounds like mayb eyou are. (?) I think you should get a counselor.
To be honest, I would have done anything to be able to have a counselor. I was not able to
open up to anyone, but it got worse and I got scared. Its so hard telling people about
this kind of stuff, but you cant keep it inside. I learned the hard way and I would hate to see you go through what I did.
Im going to tell you what has helped me. The people here! I started talking more on here. Just think about
it, we dont know you. Its not like we are going to tell people or anything like that. We are behind you all the way and only want to help. I kept talking on here and now I am pretty much able to say anything I need to on here! Its a huge achievement for me. I finally told a friend and some teachers and I still cant talk about
the worse stuff, but I am able to talk more
openly. I am still working on it. Its really hard I know, and it takes time, but you have to try your best and just rememeber that people care about
you! Its ok to feel the way you do. We understand that. And its ok.
I know how wrecked your head feels. I get that same way. But I want you to promise me something, promise me that you wont do anything and that you will continue to fight it. Promise me that if you feel scared, you will get help. I have been there and I know how it is. I know you said you could post it so I have an idea about
what you are feeling. I understand. I know how important it is to fight it. You can get through this and we are here to help you, ALWAYS! You always have us. Dont forget that. You can let out your emotion and feelings and we are still going to be here no matter what.
I hope you will keep posting and let us know how you are doing. We care about
you deeply and hate to see you going through such a rough time. I totally understand, and it isnt fun... I will keep you in my thoughts and I hope you can start to feel some relief. Maybe you will decide to talk to your doctor. Its a scary thing, talking to people, but people care, and they will help you. We will help you! Please, take care of yourself.
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."