I really hate it here at home. I'm sorry to complain, I just feel like I'm being treated bad.
I was happy this weekend that my parents let me go to Columbus to see my friend from Michigan for her Bday. Since she's not from around here. my parents let me tell her I was home. It was nice to get away for the weekend and see my friend. I had alot of fun.
However, today it started becoming bad again at home. My mom became upset because I have not done anatomy 5 hrs a day like she wants me to. I don't have to study much for the class at the community college since it's easy for me. She just wants me to study for the class I failed in grad school so I can be prepared for next year. I wanted to go work out today like every day, but my mom said she doesn't think I should because of the weather. She monitors to see I'm doing anatomy on my computer and not talking to other people. I wanted to watch some TV and she told me not to.
Today, one of the girls in my class told me her mom works at a certain nursing home and I told her my dad worked there too. She called her mom and her mom said she knew my dad and that my dad was so nice. I later called my dad to tell him and he got so upset about it. It made me feel so bad. I really hate this. My mom thinks my unmotivation and not being able to focus as with studying is because I'm lazy and depressed. She also thinks that maybe since I have depression I won't be able to make it through grad school :-( I yelled at her after she said that and told her to shutup. I told her I was tired of her. I felt bad after saying that. I'm going to see my psychiatrist on Wed. to see if she can adjust my medicine so I can focus more and help with motivation.
Post Edited (confusedgirl22) : 3/4/2008 2:40:00 PM (GMT-7)