I am fairly new to this forum too and everyone here is wonderfully supportive. My mother-in-law was bi-polar (she was dx with manic/depression when she was a teenager) and I took care of her for many years. I understand that you don't like the medications but you want to be well so they are very important part of your getting well. Also know that if one medication doesn't work there are many other options available.
I wish you much luck and a happy tomorrow!
DX: Sarcoidosis, Addisons Disease, Renal Insufficiency, IBS, GERD, Hashimoto Thyroiditis, Degenerative Disc Disease, Autoimmune Hepatitis, Hypoglycemia, Secondary Raynauds, Erythema Nodosum, Migraines, Depression
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