so theres this girl that i've liked for a long time, and she stayed at my place this weekend.
well on saturday night, we were laying on the futon watching tv at like 1am, and i just kissed her. she didnt seem to mind, so i kissed her again. soon it lead to making out, and other stuff. i asked her if all this meant anything, and she said i hope so. so i was excited about this.
well she left on sunday, so i kissed her goodbye, and she got on the train and went back home. well i got a text later that night saying that she is scared about this partly because shes moving to so-cal, and that she just got out of a 7 month relationship and she needs time.
so i asked her in time do you want to give this a try, and she said she hoped so. later i asked her if she had any feelings for me that night at my place, and she said she thinks so, but it just happened so fast. i asked her if she had feelings for me now, and she said that she didn't know and she had to think about it. so i was pretty crushed about that.
well, the next day i asked her to be honest and tell me how she really felt about me, and she told me that she doesnt think that she has the same feelings for me as I do for her. I was crushed. I asked her why she didn't tell me saturday night, and she said that it just happened too fast.
I have not felt this bad in a very, very long time. I got a taste of what it was like to be in a relationship with her, and i loved everything about it. now knowing that it didn't mean anything, i really don't know how to handle it.