I think that I found a vehicle, not sure but a probability. I almost had my hands on a Mazda RX8, someone bought it two hours before. My vehicle is a tiburon, its pretty. We will see.
I have to tell you guys, I dont want to be single!!! If I hear one more guy say oh your so gorgeous, i am going to puke!!!!!!!! It is funny for the first time in my life, I care enough about myself to honor everything about me and in this dating arena, it is sex, sex, sex and I am not into that AT ALL!!! I have no desire to be intimate with anyone, NONE,I have found that if you dont have sex with someone, they dont ask you out, which that suits me just fine, I have been called a frigid b...h, *** and I dont know what else. You just cant be a nice girl, I have to admit, it feels good to know that I am able to hold my dignity above everything else. There is another reason, a very important reason that makes me so sincere about how I feel. I look at it this way, there are pretty girls all over, "a dime a dozen" but I am pretty inside and 42 years later, I BELIEVE THIS TOO BE TRUE!!!!!!
I have not been eating as I have not felt well at all. Cant seem to get motivated, really sleepy. I see my counselor on Monday. Then Easter is coming, another holiday without him. I miss him so much.
I went to the little flea market here in Alliance. There were all kinds of stuff with Harley Davidson on it and it made me hurt for him. I would give the world for him to come back.
Vegas is doing good. Almost back to herself.
Geremiah my little boy is with me this weekend, I enjoy him so much.
Well, gotta run and check my insurance rates for the new car in case I get it. Actually I am extremely overwhelmed, could use some help, I just get ready to do something and I start to have an anxiety attack. How I found that I was having them was when my counselor said that I am grieving but I will still have anxiety attacks. I seem to have them when I feel overwhelmed and have 100 things to do. I actually get chest pain and my blood pressure is starting to go up again. What else?