I recently moved from Ohio to Houston. My sister who is 3 years younger than i am invited me to live with her in her home. Due to health reasons, i am on disability.
My sister invited me with
open arms and included in her welcome that her home was to be treated just like my own. home. ............ Well i moved into this bedroom assigned to me which had a box full of books in it. I started to read some of the books in the box which upset my sister; I have been here for 2 months and she knew that i had begun to read those books prior to the other night when she confronted me about
it. She said those books were her personal belongings (they were Christian books) and that I should have asked her to use them first. I told her i did not realize that she thought of those books that way, that I only wanted to read them, that I was not going to take them away but she said still i should have asked and said that is just the way she is. Was she right or what?
My sister is 3 years younger than I and neither one of us is a spring chicken. Looks like from maturity we should get along better with each other. She is so bossy and talks down to people. She claims to be a Christian but she is very impatient, and hard core and rude talking to people, but she is very free hearted at least at first she was. One day i was driving us to the store, she spotted an empty place to park, she said for me to park there but I did not see the space, she hollered at me then, and then on top of that she said I was slow.
I pay my part of the bills, I clean up the house which she is a very junky and unneat person to the hilt. I cook. She doesn't like it to open the venetian blinds up for light to filter into the house, I like light, but I don't open the blinds anymore because it is her house.
I have nightmares in this house every single night I have lived here and now I feel so physically weak (I already have a weak heart is the reason i am on disability) and depressed. I don't feel like answering the telephone, or doing any kind of work anymore. I moved into her house and i tried to clean up this junky house and i did good too. I just don't care to do anything for her right now. I need to move but I am even scared that she might get mad and put me out if i told her that i am moving. ANd I don't want to be deceitful and not tell her. She might not put me out but I am afraid of her not in the sense she might hurt me but in the sense she might retaliate by not speaking to me or we not visiting each other or she might not let me get my furniture out of her home.
We all have separate rooms of course, but she has a lock on her door, it was there before I moved here; she comes home and goes into her bedroom which is across from my room and closes her door. Is that normal? I only close my door when its time to go to bed.
I am to the point of not caring what she thinks about me and I don't want to do anything to prove anything to her anymore either. I just don't care. I stay far out of her way, hate to see her coming, but she is just not the kind of person i want to live with anymore. Please know that I will never hate her though. Am I feeling wrong?
What do you think I should do?