Sadsong's say so much,
Every single time I see your name I think of that song. I just can't help it.
Is there another birth control pill that you could try? Or do they all do that to you. I feel bad about that. When I took the pill, I had no trouble with moods. In fact it made me feel good. But I know it isn't always that way with everybody.
I am glad you are getting yourself some flowers. That is always a nice pick me up. I just love plants and flowers, but I use to have a floral shop and it made me feel so good to deliver them to people because of all the smiles.
It is only natural that you are going to keep your guard up a little with this new guy. And I am glad that he understands.
As Shy always says, you need to get to the bottom of the reason that you are depressed. Are you going to any counseling? That would be a start. Or do you think that it is from the hormones in the birth control pill? Either way, I wish you well. I hope that you can get a grip on the mood swings. I take abilify and that helps me a lot. It keeps me leveled out and keeps me from obsessive thinking. That might be something to look into. It might counteract your moodiness. But all in all, it sounds like you aren't doing too bad. And I am happy that you hve the good moods. You just need to have more good ones than bad.
Taking some time off of work is a nice break. Do things that you enjoy doing for a while as you are playing catch up at home. That should help you to feel better when you get everything pretty much under control.
Have a wonderful day, and keep posting.
I hope that this helped some.