I understand exactly what you mean by when you try to go to bed and cant, it gives you more time to think. During summer before shcool started back, I ould only sleep during the day.... (weird) I would stay up all night from about
in the evening until about
or 7 in the morning. I would lie in bed sometimes though at about
2 or 3 in the morning and nothing would happen. I would start to think ALOT. My mind would race horribly. I would always end up crying. A few times I had attacks. It was never pleasant. When I did get to sleep, I didnt sleep well. Out circadian rhythm (internal clock) is meant for us to be awake during the day because our body temp and stuff changes throughout the day... Mine was totally screwed up! Plus, my house is loud, I have a loud mom and some brothers and sisters so... It wasnt easy sleeping during the day, but I hated going out. I liked being locked in my room just doing nothing on the computer.
But, it had serious consequences. I never did anything. I stayed locked up. I didnt get the sleep I needed. Plus, when school started back...it was horrible trying to turn myself around! I got sick every morning because I wasnt used to getting up early. I also have fibro which affected my sleep alot. So, with that added, I wasnt getting any sleep. Thats a horrible thing. Luckily, when I started Lyrica for my fibro it helped me to be able to get some sleep. But, without it, I would have had a horrible time. Sometimes I still do.
I hope you get to the doctor though. there is no reason for you to suffer when you can be helped! I hope everything works out, and Im glad you are not going for the record! Also, I think you will feel better when you get sleep. I put myself on a schedule once and I was actually getting sleep (I was experimenting!) and after 2 weeks of a regular sleep pattern, I felt so much better!!! So, I hope you get to sleep soon! And hope you feel better! Take Care!
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."