Froggy, I hope today goes well and you are able to talk to your counselor. I am already nervous about
talking to mine later today, but I really want to and feel like I have too... You probably feel the same way... But, we CAN do this!! Dont hate yourself for something that you cant control. I have learned that the HARD way. Its ok that you cant talk about
it now. I was the same way. Ask anyone on here...when I came here I wouldnt talk about
anything. The people on here helped me be able to speak up for myself. They taught me that it takes time and patience. They encouraged me 24-7!!! I am going to help you. I cant do much seeing as I am here and you are there, but I enjoyed talking to you last night. It helped me alot to me able to talk about
openly on the net...It helped me pull together what I wanted to say out loud. It helped me accept things and realize that it wasnt my fault.
Please stop blaming yourself. Dont hate yourself, it makes things worse. You are you and there is nothing wrong with having a problem. This is something that can be helped. You can do it when the time is right. Hopefully today is the day. But, I hope you arent putting to much pressure on yourself about this, it does make things worse, as Im sure you know...
Im scared right now too, but I really want to tell her. I am just going to go, stare at the floor, and pretend I am in my room talking to myself... (I do that, it helps!) And then, I will tell her as much as possible. She will understand and be caring about it!
I wish you the best of luck!!! Dont be so hard on yourself...(easier said than done, I know) You will make it! Take Care!