Like Karen said, I wrote a letter to my counselor, I went and gave it to her and left. Then, I went back and we talked. She started the converstain just by asking questions. I was VERY scared then. And it is hard, but you have to realize that it WILL get better if you just do what you have to. Your counselor, or anyone, you talk to should be very confidential. And if you must, tell them you would appreciate it if they didnt tell anyone. Your counselor shouldnt tell anyone, the only way they will is if they feel like your life, or someone elses is in danger. I know that sounds "on the line"... I was afraid to tell my counselor I cut because in our first session she asked if I had ever self-harmed...I really hadnt... I had hit myself a few times (with a baseball bat) but it didnt hurt me... and I hadnt really thought of it being self-harm, so I told her "no"... She said, "Good, because you would need professional help if you did."
She wasnt being mean or anything about
it, but I took it as that sort of. I thought she would freak out if I told her. So, I never did. I was afraid to tell her how bad everything REALLY was. She knew I was depressed, but not to what extent.
I will help you both get started. When you feel emotional, sit down and write down what you WISH you could tell someone. Dont erase it or throw it away. Give it to your counselor or a trusted adult. It helps. I promise. So far, everyone I have told has been very caring and understanding about
it. I FEARED people freaking out, but they didnt. So, ITS OK. You CAN tell someone.
My teachers, I told them about
my anxiety because it affects alot. I cant go on field trips. I cant do speeches. I dont do crowds. Anything like that, so I really had no choice but to explain to them why I cant do certain things. I just went to them individually and alone, I started by saying "The reason I cant do .... is because I have anxiety problems." Then, I explained. And they listened. Then they asked questions about
Its very scary having to talk to people, but when I did, I realized how much people care about
me. I am alot closer to my teachers and a few friends and my counselor now. I never realize how many and how much people cared about
me. But, they all understood and they all do everything they can to help me.
Froggy, I had the SAME problem. I was SO afraid I would just start crying. And I REFUSE to cry in front of people. I hate showing emotion because it makes me feel small. I like to appear strong because I feel strong on the outside no matter whats going on in the inside. I feared breaking down because I tend to talk to myself (in private) and I tell myself what I wish I could tell someone. This helps because I am not talking directly to someone, but I am saying everything I want to. When I do, I always cry. So, I had a huge problem with that.
I havent broke down in front of anyone yet. I have held things together, and you can too. If not, its ok. You are stronger just for wanting to talking about
it. Remember that. It doesnt matter if you cry. You should. You have the right to and it doesnt change anything.
I want to tell you that you can do it. Dont think about
it. Just do it. Just say whatever you want. If you cant start the conversation, write the letter. That person will then know what is going on and they will talk to YOU about
it. Then, it will go from there. And be completely honest with that person and yourself. Be true to your feelings and thoughts. You will feel so much better after you tell someone, trust me, I have been there.
Also, I feel so much better now. And now I want to help others in the same situation, so I will do whatever it takes to help you be able to speak. I know exactly what it is like. I have better relationships now that I have told people. And I feel good about
things. I talked to my counselor Friday and I told her we needed to talk this coming week. I am going to tell her everything that has happened the past 10 or 11 months... I was always so afraid to tell her... I kept her in the dark about
things and I feel like she needs to know now. I am through it and I can do it. I am going to tell her now. I never did and I regret it. I wish I had been able to be
things. It doesnt make you any less of a person. You are human and you have feelings and thoughts. Some things you cant control, and you cant go back. What has happened, has happened.
So, do what you can to tell someone. Write a letter. Its a good start. Its hard, but its huge and you will feel so much better. Be sure to be true to yourself and your feelings! You CAN DO THIS!!! You BOTH CAN DO THIS!!!! And I will be here anytime to help you.
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."