Cheer me up, Please!

Hello everyone...I have been doing really good lately and have felt alot better, however, today hasnt been the same. I have.. (ughh, I hate admitting it) but today I have felt down. I hate saying that because I have been doing so well... I have been starting to see it a little more for the past few days, but today I saw the down-ness clearly. I even felt good yesterday because I talked to my counselor. Why do I have to feel bad today!!!!

I am getting that feeling that things are becoming overwhelming. Or things are becoming crowded and stuff. I am just having feelings I had before. I dont know what to do to keep it all away. I know this usually sneaks up on us, but once again, I had been feeling like I was getting better. I also know there are rocks in the road, but still. I have hit many boulders in my road these past months and I dont wish to hit another, but I feel as if I may have... at least hit a big rock!

I am not sure what caused this though. My parents were fighting today, that didnt help, but I felt down before that. I have 4 more weeks of school until summer. Maybe I am having thoughts back to last summer...(horrible summer)... Maybe because in 4 weeks I will be a senior and things will be stressful then...

Whatever it is, I WANT IT TO GO AWAY!!!!   Why does it always have to happen when I start feeling better???   I have been doing so good. I have been so proud of myself and I have been thinking that I have finally gotten away from it, but apparently not.

Am I ever going to get away from this...(retorical question, I know I really can, someday.)

sigh... does anyone want to help cheer me up? Thats the approach I am taking. I am trying to cheer myself up... I need some assistance!

I think that Kevin is right when he says to try to look at the positive things. Some days there aren't as many but they are there somewhere. You will be feeling better in no time.

hugs, Karen

Hi Tennis

You have to take it one day at a time. I too have days where I wake up and everything just feels wrong.
I have to remind myself all of the time that I am ok,and things are not that bad.
But,being overwhelmed with life,and then having anxiety and panic attacks is hard to deal with.

Maybe you should think about getting your mind off of things. Forcing yourself to go for a nice long walk.
Or getting some books from the library.

Or buying an Exercise video,and popping it in when you start to get overwhelmed and can feel the anxiety coming on....

Hi Christi,

Please try to relax, you might see your counselor today and get to talk to her about the way that you are feeling right now. It sounds like your anxiety is up. You need to try to do things to relax yourself. Maybe listen to some good music when you get home, or take a nice relaxing walk or a bath. What ever helps you.

keep posting and let us know how things are going.

hugs, Karen

Tennis

Is there anyway that your mom can join you in one of your sessions?
I think that somethings parents have a blind eye,because they don't want to admit that there is a problem that they can't handle themselves.

Then maybe your counselor can talk to your mom and help her to understand what you are going through?

Tennis

It sounds like your Mom is trying to reach out.. she asked you "What did you talk about".. that is code to me for "I want to know what is going on with you".

I know you think she doesn't care ect ect.. parents suck ect ect.. but please remember that being a parent does not come with a step by step book.
You learn,you make mistakes,you learn and you make more mistakes..but you always love your kids...

Off topic from my mom, most importantly, I also wanted to let you guys know that I talked to my counselor and I told her how I almosted ODed a few months ago...Oh yea, I actually told her this, OUT LOUD... kinda a big thing since I havent been able to do that yet...

Its ok. You didnt do anything. Its just a sensitive subject for me... We have had a lot of problems over the years, and I have just always wished it were different...

Yeah, I felt a bit better. I have told her everything, or almost, and now maybe we can just piece it all together and talk about it... I just feel like talking about it for some reason.... I am still not able to just let go of everything. It cant be easy to just let go of a huge chunk of your life though... I dont know. the last time I did that, I ended up having to talk about it now.... So, I want to do the right thing to get over it so that it isnt a future problem.. hopefully! Take Care!

Wayen,

I just love how you explain 'being in the now'. I know it is so hard for some people, it was for me. But life is so much better if we could just live in the now and appreciate what is going on in the now. Thank you for that type of explanation.

hugs, Karen

I'm glad to hear that it helps you. Every time I feel just a little bad, I try to figure out what the cause is, and accept it. Small things tend to be easier to accept and forget than big things, so I try to find possible sources of sadness as soon as possible. When I do feel sad, I just look around and try to appreciate the moment.

I have to admit, last week I was depressed, now I feel enlightened. During my depression I was constantly worrying about stuff that couldn't be changed. Now I have learn to accept the things I at first found unfair, and appreciate the good things. Right now, I appreciate the fact that I am able to use a computer to type this message. As soon as I get irritated of something, I focus on the now, and try to observe my emotions. Being aware of your emotions, what caused them, etc. will help you to handle them. As I said before, as soon as I start feeling insecure or sad, I try to find the source of it (which isn't hard at all), I accept it the way it is now, right now, and after that I leave it alone or I will try to make it better. For instance, if I feel stressed because of the upcoming finals, I accept that I can't change the date of those exams, and I will try to make that feeling go away by studying. You can use the future to remind you of the things that need to be done right now. Something similar with the past. Accept everything that happened there will let you focus on the now. You can't change the past, so don't try, and don't feel bad about certain mistakes you made, accept that you made them, and try to do it better next time. Some with the mistakes of others.

You have to remember that in the end you, and only you will decide how you feel. Others can give you certain feelings, but it is you who decide how you feel. Accepting things can give you peace, and once you have peace, negative emotions and thoughts have nowhere to go. Well, that is how things work for me.

Maybe you could try to accept your parents, no matter how hard it is. If you can accept them, you will have peace with them, and thus no more negative feelings. You can try to change them for the better after that, and it won't hurt you when it fails, because you have peace with them. If they do change for the better, you will be filled with joy.

I know it is really hard to accept everything and live in the now, but after just a week of thinking and "meditating" (sit around and observe stuff, not making hummmmm noises ;) ) I can feel the difference, and I have climbed up from near total depression to a state of peace. And if I can do it, you can do it.

I hope this is somewhat useful.

Take care!

thanks Shy! be careful on the hugs though, I am incredibly sore! Every muscle in my body! Too much playing outside! But, I had so much fun just being able to do the things I love and have fun... but I hate paying the price... :( But, Im stubborn, I would rather just play! :D