Hello everyone...I have been doing really good lately and have felt alot better, however, today hasnt been the same. I have.. (ughh, I hate admitting it) but today I have felt down. I hate saying that because I have been doing so well... I have been starting to see it a little more for the past few days, but today I saw the down-ness clearly. I even felt good yesterday because I talked to my counselor. Why do I have to feel bad today!!!!
I am getting that feeling that things are becoming overwhelming. Or things are becoming crowded and stuff. I am just having feelings I had before. I dont know what to do to keep it all away. I know this usually sneaks up on us, but once again, I had been feeling like I was getting better. I also know there are rocks in the road, but still. I have hit many boulders in my road these past months and I dont wish to hit another, but I feel as if I may have... at least hit a big rock!
I am not sure what caused this though. My parents were fighting today, that didnt help, but I felt down before that. I have 4 more weeks of school until summer. Maybe I am having thoughts back to last summer...(horrible summer)... Maybe because in 4 weeks I will be a senior and things will be stressful then...
Whatever it is, I WANT IT TO GO AWAY!!!! Why does it always have to happen when I start feeling better??? I have been doing so good. I have been so proud of myself and I have been thinking that I have finally gotten away from it, but apparently not.
Am I ever going to get away from this...(retorical question, I know I really can, someday.)
sigh... does anyone want to help cheer me up? Thats the approach I am taking. I am trying to cheer myself up... I need some assistance!