I have the same problem, and I have for 11 months now. I am 16 so I can probably relate a little more. I understand what you are explaining, and it does sound like you are depressed. You mentioned a school therapist, why is it not private enough? I talk to my school counselor... it pretty private. they arent aloud to say anything about
what you talk about
unless they feel you will harm yourself or someone else. Its normally pretty confidential. But, its ok if you dont feel comfortable! I totally understand! I think you should try talking to your parents first and then see about
going to the doctor.
Hopefully this wont be a problem for you, as it has been for me. Your doctor will be able to help you and probably send you in the direction of a good therapist!
Anyways, if you ever want to talk, Im here for you. I am on alot... you can email or IM me if you wish. I just wanted to let you know that you are NOT alone and that I understand how you feel! Also, you said like me, home studying and doing homework... except for the rehearal part! I dont do that! Too scared! lol But, I understand not having time for things...or maybe Im just lazy.... no, I just have a hard time with sports because of my Fibro so... I would love to play sports! lol Sorry rambling on.. I hope you get some results and take care!
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."