Hi there 'kisses from cat'...must be dreadful to feel like that..I cannot even imagine how that feels..
However I am gonna suggest 'journaling' for a week or so - just jot down your feelings, what's going on around you, the weather, anything really..and see what happens..sometimes that's all it takes to get us back on track..
Do you think that going to the doc. and explaining what is going on with you might help? Just a thought anyhow
I am sure there will be lots of helpful replies for you. Take good care.