My problem with depression and lonliness has come over me again and I don't know how I can manage another summer like the past ones. I have no one to talk to right now and am home because I have been sick for a while with bronchitis and asthma so it is too hard to go out when I am so weak and can't breathe. My oldest son has gone away for the weekend as usual in the Spring and Summer and my other son has his fiance in town with him for the next couple of months so I don't see much of him. Also, he has been so stressed over his job and all the commitments he has that even when we talk I feel I am on egg shells. If I say something he doesn't want to hear or talk about
he gets very angry with me and I just can't take it. It hurts me so to have him mad at me. I have been so good to him. He bought a condo last fall and is really financially strapped. I have helped him out financially so many times and I know he appreciates it. I am also helping him with the purchase of his fiance's engagement ring. I know my sons care about
me but I don't think they understand how lonely I am or that I have problems too. I was going to a depression group that meets once a month but the people there are mostly bipolar or are there for support for a family member that is bipolar. They listen to me when it is my turn to talk but no one really relates to me or offers helpful advice. Memorial day weekend is coming up and I am going to try to make plans with friends so I won't be so depressed. Does anyone else have this problem with lonliness I have? All I do is cry and feel worse. It is so hard to be alone and not have anyone to talk to, especially when there is a whole world out there with people doing things and having fun. I am shy so it is hard to meet new people. I do volunteer work and read a lot and have several needlepoint projects. It is the weekends when I am alone and don't have anyone to talk to. I did have a part time job for abount 5 months but I had to quit because it was too physically exhausting and stressful. I just would like to hear from someone and tell me I am OK and I will get beyond this horrible lonliness. Please anyone out there send a reply and maybe I will feel better and be able to put things in perspective.