Hi Dark, i im sorta new to the depression forum, have alot to work out my slef, but wanted to offer condolences and help as well, you can email me to if you wish, im always there to listen, my email is on my profile.
I to have loss people to death,a sister and a brother, and others, but a friend I have not, I have lost a friend recently but not to death, i really dont what i lost her too, to be honest, she just wont talk to me. So I feel like she is dead in my heart. But I am sure it is not the same as what you are going through. Please keep posting and emailing us, so we are there to let you vent and get it out.
I really do believe in journalizing, i used to do it myslef, and its an outlet, that really helps.
Please remember we are here for you....