So today i have done nothing but cry. I have some days where im emotional and i take things for what they are not. Take things tooc serious or literally for more than they are. Today is me and my husband's 6th year anniversary. It has been a year now that i have been diagnosed with depression. Eventhough he is great with me and supports me i take my emotions on him sometimes. I wish i didnt. i wish he didnt see me cry. I wish i could go away so noone sees me like this and when i get better i can come back happy. I just want to stop crying and i want to not take this out on people who mean the world to me.
I got flowers today from my husband,which i was not expecting since i know we are celebrating our anniversary on the weekend. So that was a great surprise. I cried cuz i thought that was so sweet and that i didnt deserve it. Im not the same woman he married and he knows that. But he still loves me and i am so grateful. the one thing i did not want is for my depression to get the best of me or my family ever. And it has. I cry so much and i am on meds but it will take some time for them to take effect. So im gonna get better and quit feeling sorry for myself and get some sleep and hope for a better new day tomorrow. wish me luck.