Hi, I'm new to this forum of healingwell. I post often in the Ulcerative Colitis forum. And I'm definitely not new to depression.
I stopped the medication a couple months ago b/c I was doing so well and I was already taking so many meds b/c of the UC. As my UC has worsened, I have been doing a lot worse emotionally as well. Within the last week, I've cried about 5 times. I just spent an hour earlier crying b/c I can't handle this disease. Depression and self-esteem issues robbed my teenage years, and now this disease has robbed me of the rest of my life. I can't follow or complete my dreams. I always have to worry about any possible messy situations, what I have to eat, etc etc. I'm a burden on my family. I'm afraid that I'm never going to find someone to love me. I don't have anyone other than my immediate family to talk to or rely on. And they definitely don't understand depression (in fact, my dad thinks it's complete bs) and as much as they try, they don't understand what it's like to have UC.
I feel like things can only get worse since the disease is mostly likely to get worse. I'm just so unhappy.
I'm sorry for rambling and thanks for listening (or rather, reading).
Post Edited (ComedyDork) : 12/4/2008 6:02:11 PM (GMT-7)