You don't have to forgive her if you don't want to. There are things that happen in our lives that we cannot forget. There isn't any thing to justify any forgiveness. She should be apologising to you. And so should he. But you do not need to worry about
that right now. You need to worry about
you and how you are going to relax and cope with this. I don't blame you a bit. I have went as far as to spit on my mothers grave and have no remorse. I had to do it. It made me feel better at the time. If you want to forgive you can, but you don't have to. Do I sound repeatative? 'Because I feel that way.
I just want to stress that he can't hurt you any more and niether can she. So try to relax and do some deep breathing. Is there any crisis numbers that you can call to get ahold of your therapist. I know that you said you wont see her anymore, but maybe you could talk to her over the phone. Just remember you are safe with your husband and no body can hurt you.
I understand your anguish. I can feel your pain. But you will get stronger. You can look yourself in the mirror every day and feel good about
yourself. You have nothing to be afraid of anymore. You are a good person and you have tried to do the best you can, and that is all that any of us can do.
So take time out and love yourself.
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