Geez. What a day. I had been taking antidepressents for 10+ years until about
a month ago. I also take Ritalin for ADD everyday which I don't have a problem with. I went off Zoloft (150 mg) per day back in December 2007. I just felt like it wasn't effective anymore. Discontinuing Zoloft and going onto Cymbalta-that was a real joy. Holidays, switching meds-not a good mix. Anyway, went on Cymbalta up to the max of 60 mg per day-according to the literature in the manufacturer's "sample" box, which the doc gave to me for free-what a chap! Was on Cymbalta for 4 months until I realized I was getting very mean, impatient and wanting to just lash out at anyone/anything who offended me in the smallest way. So, I went off of it after I went to pick it up on a Sat. at the doc's and they were all gone 10 mins. early! What a nightmare. I'm not sure if I was detoxing from 10+ years on antidepressants or what but the withdrawl symptoms were excruciating. Its been a little over a month now and I'm still feeling very quick tempered, impatient and the depresseion hits me about
every two weeks-real good. I mean-wanna check out, see ya later good. This is sooooo frustrating. I wanted to try the no anti-depressant way of life-better diet, exercise, spending time with family/friends. The side effects of no meds was sooooooo awful. I still have this lighheadedness at times. I also have like this twitch-like an electric shock-someone had mentioned on this forum. It made me realize how all-encompassing these drugs are and how powerful they are on the central nervous system-almost too spooky for me. Now I know why it is sooooo difficult for anyone with an addiction problem to quit. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to be on antidepressants. It took me soooo long to accept that I needed them. It's so demoralizing. Now I just feel like I'm frustrated, short-tempered and angry all the time. My Ritalin keeps me going and on-focus but I'm fearful about
my mood swings. My mother has diagnosed me with bi-polar. I'm a pretty happy go lucky person when my meds are right and this is sooooo hard on me right now. I get angry at the littlest things. I get overwhelmed. Then I get very, very sad-suicidal sad a couple of times a month. I have no insurance. I work for myself. My only way to see a psychiatrist is through a local non-profit where I HAVE to go through counseling again (been there, done that) and will be able to see their psychiatrist in about
3 months. My regualr doctor is no help. I think he just hands out the latest and greatest-whatever the reps are shoving in front of them-hence the Cymbalta. Any comments/suggestions?
Post Edited (whereamihelp!) : 5/24/2008 6:18:28 PM (GMT-6)